a confession to my loved [ep.吐]

We were friends, when I was living or sharing a shared-house with him.
He was on second floor and I was on the third.
It was nice, fun and warm when we were in a normal relationship.
Sometimes going to a night market and went for a motor trip with a group of our friends.
At the time, I was trying to fix my own love life, he was not on my list.
He also told me that he had some major love problems to solve.
While we were trading for our love issues, something was growing between in our subconscious without our awareness.

We were friends, body-body, for more than six months; Nothing happened, really.
Cuz, we were all up to someone else, I was trying to recontact with my ex and he was busing in younger chics.
As we faced each others, going into a deep-heart conversation, we actually opened our mind and listened.
The love problems did not disturb us, we even helped each other's to solve the problems.

Day by day, the contract of our house was due.
We need to move; he was handling the living problem.
An apartment he found at down town, just like a home.
We shared four rooms with other 2.

Closer and closer, we became, no more "normal-friends" relationship.
There's definitely emotional going on.

And I, I was struggle with the emotion or the arousal feeling.

a confession to my loved [ep.萬]

It's time for me to set it free.

It was an eternal triangle and closed for a year!?
I need to face it through this blog, face the fact, which was ended by myself.

我是那種無法拒絕對方釋出"善意"的人，
只需一點關心、問候、貼心的舉動，

很容易"對號入座"，甚至衝動的回應。

又，
想得到的人、事、物，
常常都必須得到。

在不久的幾個月內，
我們成了親密的朋友，
自以為世俗的框框都是那些有需要的伴侶創造出來的名詞，
我有你，你有我，這就是一切。

且，
我有你，我只有你，
你有我，你不只有我。
[我很複雜，需要多樣的知己來滿足我的需求。]你說。
[去吧！我懂你，我了解這種需求，別擔心我的想法。]我說(莫名成全你的我的蠢)。

就這樣，
像顆永遠不願成熟的瓜，
死命的、盡全力的掛在這永不停止延伸的藤上。